Tuesday, July 12, 2011


Everybody will feel this feeling, this strange creepy darkness that just swells up within oneself. It's simple its the pain, simple breaking of a heart. The heart thats a funny thing, it can be broken in one instant or it can be slowly torn at, ripped and stabbed over a period of time. It can be broken by some complete stranger or the person that you find yourself caring about more than anything in the world. That's the hurt that hurts the most.

Its easier to lock your heart up, and not allow yourself to feel or fall in love. It's easier to pretend that everyone around you are bad and are going to hurt you. It's easier to lock yourself away and not allow yourself to feel anything. When you feel for that one instant love, the next instant you are wondering when the hurt part comes or how long are you going to have to wait for it.

I always expected that people will stab at my heart, so I kept it closed off and didn't let anyone near it. Until, suddenly I thought that something maybe different, something would stop the constant pain, and I allowed myself for that small instant to trust someone other than myself. For a long time I was convinced that it was the right thing to do. But, sitting here and writting this makes all those feelings just run and hide under the covers. I feel like a fool and the pain that rises in my chest where my heart is, hurts uncontrollably. The tears havn't hit my eyes yet, but the huge boulder in my chest has already been built.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Feeling Confused

(Inspired by a sister who I love unconditionally. May this make some sense to you. You know who you are.)

Who does she chose
She's confused
And feeling so blue

Where does she go
When all is confused
And her thoughts are
Reaching the sky and the moon

She crawls to her bed
To figure this out
But sleep doesn't come
She is feeling let down
With her endless thoughts
Spinning around

She is scared to get hurt
It happened before
She opened her heart
With hope to love
Her heart can't hold on

She wants to be loved
For someone to hold
To whisper those words
She is eager to know

Could one of them
Be that guy
To hold her hand
Through those dark stormy nights

So who does she chose
So,she doesn't  lose
She will make the right chose
She'll hear the voice

She run after it
Running towards the one
That she isn't willing to lose.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Bare Minerals Foundation Review.

  • Hey Everyone,
                                       I know I haven't written in quite a while. And there shouldn't be any excuses for that.
bareMinerals SPF 15 Matte FoundationBut, today I would like to make a little blog on my all time favorite Foundation of all time. I have tried so many of them and when I saw the commercials on TV for the bare mineral foundation I just shrugged it off and thought nothing of it. But, with my last online purchase at Sephora I got the option to try the Bare Minerals Foundation in Median Beige. And I am absolutely in love with it. I don't know what I have been doing without it all these years.
I mainly am surprised at how much coverage the foundation provides. For the past month and a half all I have been using is the Bare Minerals foundation and it is amazing. It gives you just the right amount of coverage and feels wonderful on your skin. Also, in my opinion the foundation isn't to heavy and is really easy to blend. It works great with a little Kabuki Brush. I can't explain how much I love this product. If you haven't tried any of there products look for deals from Sephora or Ulta which can send you a free sample, then you can decide if you want to buy it. The full size product cost $28 at both Sephora and Ulta. From everything that I have tried in the past this is defiantly  a 5/5 product. If you have tried any of the Bare Mineral Products let me know what you think of them.:)
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